eccentric

DAM MA

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Linda is gay. Like uber gay.

oh how i love my buttercup! :D

Linda is gay. Like uber gay.

Long time no post. On college and the fragile teenage mind.

I’ve noticed something. My fall semester of sophomore year is coming to a close and I’ve come to realize something.

There’s something about college that brings out the worst in people.

So many flaming arguments, so many brutish people, so much angst.

This is not to say that college does wonders. I’ve truly grown up and flowered in many creative fields. So have many of my peers around me.

Yet there is just some aura of negativity and anger once in awhile that i’ve never seen in HS. I think tumblr and facebook only fuel it. How? well you see FB and tumblr are like your friends that always listen to… except they don’t actually give you any helpful input… they allow you to vent… without any progress…

and this is where i feel college brings out the worst in people. in HS you always had your parents to go to for guidance. and you always had your best friend. well now your best friend is miles away. now you are suddenly too old to go to your parents for advice without feeling like you are being childish. you have suddenly been cast off into the real world without your consent, by yourself. And some people just have a harder time at dealing with it then others. some people hold these pressures and let it build their negative character and soon it just unravels violently. i would be lying if i said i wasn’t effected by this. i think this is all part of growing up, dealing with trauma alone.

I’m personally pretty darn fine right now. Life is busy, life is hectic, life is worth it. college is a beautiful time in one’s life, it’s just a tough go, learning to find your space. some find it in God. for others that just can’t work. for these people i think they underestimate just how wonderful some of their friends are. during my share of anger i certainly did.

i’m a blessed kid.

ma‡

sometimes i have the head problems of an alcoholic. not knowing what’s going on. playing mind games that don’t make sense. self destructive psychological tendencies.

fortunately i have an outlet for this. and i will always be happy for it. it’s not healthy at all. but it works. and hopefully one day i won’t need it anymore.

Cut the anchor

I truly realized today that I simply can’t surround myself around people who don’t strive to succeed.

Actions and habits are contagious.

They feed into your way of life. Seeing how some people go about their life and the decisions they make truly frighten me. It frightens me how you can not do a thing to improve your life, and let the elements batter down on you. It frightens me that people can seemingly reject the hands thrown out to them in desperate pleas of assistance and sympathy. How could they go about life like that?

I don’t want to choose to be around those people. Idleness is terrifying. I’ll choose to live the most non-static and progressive life I can.

Friendships are like relationships, when you truly delve into them you choose to accept the negatives and the fall-outs of the person. Maybe at this point in our lives it’s best to cut the anchor and set sail.

Fact is, I only work out for three reasons.

1. my gf

2. black t-shirts

3. express

Truth.

“i like her because she smiles at me and she means it”

something to chew on

nighty :}